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18 December 2010 @ 09:16 pm
Title: Beautiful
Rating: R
Pairing: Sakumoto
Summary: It was pitiful what he was for as beautiful as he was.
Disclaimer: Do not know any of the mentioned characters. This is all fake and never happened.
Warning: Angst and implied male on male sexual relations.

So uh, sorry to not update in a while. But I swear to make it up to you guys...after the 23rd lol. But as always I will try to post as much as I can.

His name was Matsumoto Jun. He was a perfectionist, the perfect son, and the most flirtatious man you’ll ever bump into. I’ve seen him get his way out of a parking and speeding ticket. I’ve heard the lines he used on bouncers to let him enter clubs without waiting, all of them worked. I’ve seen him get the attention on anyone within a 200 mile radius of him which only fed more to his ego.

I’ve heard him bitch and moan about never being able to find love. I’ve seen him yell at a waiter for getting a part of his order wrong. I’ve seen him throw a remote, a plate, a pillow; I’ve heard him crying behind a closed door.

He never admits to his mistakes and faults because he swears he has none. He won’t give you second chances, yet he’s quick to want you to hear him out. I know he’s actually delicate, like I said earlier, he’ll cry when no one’s around, where no one can see his red nose and red eyes with tear stained cheeks. He’ll never allow anyone to see that broken side of him, but I’ve seen it for more times than I’ve heard it.

I can see why men are easily entrapped by him and I can also see why people notice him. He was beautiful. With his deep voice, his characteristic features, and of course his powerful aura that only a fool wouldn’t be able to notice. Though because he was graced with such qualities, he feels as if he’s entitled to act the way he does.

I’ve seen him bring random men home for one night stands, probably filled with broken promises. I’ve heard the bed creaking, the soft grunting, and the skin slapping until they stopped. It had become almost like a routine when he’d bring someone home. They stumbled into the bedroom, clothes flying everywhere. Matsumoto, hovering above the unknown man while they try to set everything up. Then would come the noises. Noises that no matter how much you try to block out, it only gets louder. Those noises were what I’ve gotten used to hearing. I’ve gotten accustomed to the soft curses and painfully desperate cries, but what was even worse was that I’ve gotten used to my body reacting every time it happened.

I’ve bumped into those men, the one’s who got to touch him, only to be acknowledged as a roommate. I really wasn’t much of a match. I didn’t have a huge ego or aura to boot, I didn’t have great features, nor did I have enough confidence to flirt like he does. I am both nothing and no one in comparison to him.

Because he was someone dear to me, he was someone that no matter how many times I wanted to leave and do away with him, I felt my heart clench when his walls fell down. I didn’t mind being the one to wipe away his tears after his persistent yelling for me to leave him be. I really didn’t mind the sloppy seconds after his nights with other men. He was after all giving me what I’ve always wanted: his attention.

Those nights when he slipped into my room, those cold and distant minutes of him kissing my trembling body, those were the nights I hoped to relive again. I wanted his warm breath to ghost over me before making contact with my erection, the same one that had awaken while he was having his midnight activities with the random strangers. Much like what always happened, I would beg for him to fuck me, to make me feel better. Even though I would never say those words to him, I simply would place my hands on his shoulders and squeeze them softly.

Even after my ungraceful orgasm and the even more unappealing kiss that followed afterwards, I would still feel as if I was a huge part of his life, much like he was to me.

His name was Matsumoto Jun, and he was also my boyfriend.

Current Mood: coldcold
Current Music: Matchbox 20
Write it as a dream, read it as a goal.: Sho-kunayu_t on December 19th, 2010 02:24 am (UTC)
OMG, the ending really struck me :O

I feel sorry for Sho, but at the same time I kinda understand Jun :/

Anyway, this is good hum~ I'd never thought of Sakumoto like that before ^^
Write it as a dream, read it as a goal.: arashiayu_t on December 19th, 2010 02:24 am (UTC)
(no subject) - cry1baby on December 19th, 2010 02:34 am (UTC) (Expand)
jellybean6972jellybean6972 on December 19th, 2010 02:25 am (UTC)
Wow~ that was really good! X3
I could picture all of it,
it's sounds just like a j-movie or dorama (^.^)
cry1babycry1baby on December 19th, 2010 02:35 am (UTC)
Thanks hun~
Haha i know right with all that angst.

milla_kunmilla_kun on December 19th, 2010 03:16 am (UTC)
omg..soo goood<3
jun..jaja you kind of described him perfectly..xD lol

poor sakurai... why does he has to go trough all of that? TT__TT

anyways..this was good, very good ^^
cry1babycry1baby on December 19th, 2010 03:35 am (UTC)
haha, Diva!Jun is so easy to do XD

cause i'm an evil author :/ [jk lol]

thanks once again hun~ [even though im supposed to be working on my paper i wrote this XD]

ジャンセン: [arashi] ninomiya kazunarielyon14340 on December 19th, 2010 03:55 am (UTC)
I was like, "Oh Sho." at the ending.

This was really a painful read for me, because it's on Sho's POV and somehow, I can just see Jun doing those kinds of things.

But this piece is really good.
cry1babycry1baby on December 19th, 2010 04:43 am (UTC)
Mm, the first person pov can do that.
Thank you hun~

batrisya_85batrisya_85 on December 19th, 2010 04:37 am (UTC)
wow~ the ending struck me hard! damn matsumoto..! how dare u hurt my dear sho~ T.T make up to him now!

beautifully done! thanks for the fic <3
cry1babycry1baby on December 19th, 2010 04:41 am (UTC)
ah..in a good way?
Thank you ^^

(no subject) - batrisya_85 on December 19th, 2010 04:44 am (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - cry1baby on December 19th, 2010 05:38 am (UTC) (Expand)
dekkawaidekkawai on December 19th, 2010 05:07 am (UTC)
when I read the last line I thought "Uwaa...really?"
this is good ><
and as expected angst really suit Sakumoto..
thank you xD
cry1babycry1baby on December 19th, 2010 05:41 am (UTC)
Thank you~
Yeah, it's cause of the weird tension thats between them. they never really do anything fanservice like with each other..

bob lemonboblemon on December 19th, 2010 02:12 pm (UTC)
Somehow I really liked this. It's sad, of course, but I like Sho's feelings for Jun, like hanging around even though Jun's blatantly cheating on him because he's the only one that Jun can turn to. Also the fact that Sho feels so inferior was a great point of view to use for it. :)

I'd really like to see what happened if Sho suddenly wasn't there for him any more. I wonder what Jun would do?
cry1babycry1baby on December 19th, 2010 02:48 pm (UTC)
Thank you~
Hmm, i slightly had it in mind that Sho is just deeply in love with him so he cant even bring himself to leave him. But you did put an interesting thought in my head lol

壊れる世界: のだめ♪千秋先輩kowareru_sekai on December 19th, 2010 11:14 pm (UTC)
Great <3
I was a bit shocked with the end XD but was awesome! Thanks for sharing (^o^)/

I have to write more Sakumoto too. Your story kind of encoraged me lol
cry1babycry1baby on December 20th, 2010 12:07 am (UTC)
Ahaha thanks babe. Hope you do write more too ^^

mmt ♥ just that...: Sakumotousermmt on December 19th, 2010 11:34 pm (UTC)
uau sakumoto ^___^ and it's awsome the way you describe them and all the angst... good sakumoto lol

And i totaly agree with boblemon's comment I could read more from this.

thank you <33
cry1babycry1baby on December 20th, 2010 12:10 am (UTC)
Thanks and thanks for reading~
mm, now i'm getting more ideas for it haha

CY ☆CYsuper_cycy on December 20th, 2010 11:55 pm (UTC)
-clenches her chest-

This...was wonderful. Even with the agnst.
thankyouthankyouthankyouu~ ;D
I've been craving Sakumoto theses days LOL

cry1babycry1baby on December 21st, 2010 01:45 am (UTC)
Thank you~~
yeah the fandom needs more rare pairings [which im planing a yamapair shhhhhh XD]

everything is fine, had i not had this stupid paper to finish everything wouldve been perfect T^T

(no subject) - super_cycy on December 21st, 2010 07:01 am (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - cry1baby on December 21st, 2010 02:07 pm (UTC) (Expand)
fancyann1974fancyann1974 on January 2nd, 2011 02:11 am (UTC)
poor sho, very powerful
thank you so much for sharing
cry1babycry1baby on January 2nd, 2011 02:23 am (UTC)
Thank you for reading

Cause you never know what lies beneath...geminib on January 28th, 2011 09:57 pm (UTC)
Hi, I just love when you write Sakumoto... PLease do it more often ^^
cry1babycry1baby on January 29th, 2011 01:42 am (UTC)

mm, i try to write as many pairings as i can, so if i get an idea for one i will definitely write ^^

nakabibighaninakabibighani on March 6th, 2011 03:27 pm (UTC)
Even after my ungraceful orgasm and the even more unappealing kiss that followed afterwards, I would still feel as if I was a huge part of his life, much like he was to me.

His name was Matsumoto Jun, and he was also my boyfriend.

- i was kind of shocked that sho was actually jun's boyfriend here... from my pov though, despite jun's inappropriate, undeserved, and just plain bastardly treatment of sho, he actually loves him. yes, jun cannot help but flirt and fling it out with other men. but if you come to think of it, it is only with sho that he shows his real self, and it is only with sho that he stuck it out for more than a night. what is it if not love? this is nice 'coz it made me think about things i have not thought about for a while, things that matter. thank you! ^_^
cry1babycry1baby on March 8th, 2011 06:06 pm (UTC)
mm, that's true. in his weird way he's actually showing his love for him even if to an outsider it doesnt seem that way

oh^^ you welcome
mugen_ai3mugen_ai3 on December 27th, 2011 03:17 am (UTC)
Oh my god...*cries* I know this is old but its going in the mems.
cry1babycry1baby on December 27th, 2011 06:55 am (UTC)
haha oh thats quite alright
thank you hun <3