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20 April 2011 @ 02:07 am
Throw Your Arms Around Me  
Title: Throw Your Arms Around Me
Pairing: Yamapair
Rating: R
Summary: He was always there for him, no matter what.
Discalimer: I am not nor do I know any of the mentioned characters. This never happened. It is all a piece of fiction.

I have always been there for him no matter what. When we first debuted, his scandal, when he moved out his parent’s home--all of that--I was with him. No matter how he approached me, I always had time for him.

Though one day…he didn’t give me time.


We were lucky enough to have the day off together and decided to have a fun ‘Old Man team’--as our bratty Nino liked to call us--day of fun. I decided it’d be best to do two to three things we like so it was fair. And the day was going so well. We went to a museum, we watched a movie, we shopped for clothes and fishing equipment, had dinner, and then we relaxed at home.

I had been looking forward to this day the whole week because it was going to be just us. I was so nervous for some reason when he called me the Saturday before, asking if I was free next Friday. I knew he most likely wanted to make plans with me so whilst on the phone with him, I wrote the possible things we could do. A habit that I cannot seem to break.

Friday came and there we were, on his couch watching some television. It was quite couple-ish of us to just be huddled together, sharing a blanket while sipping some sake. Our positions kept changing throughout the night until he was laying on top of me, resting his head on my chest.

Goosebumps covered my skin whenever his leg moved, whenever his hands moved--hell, even when he breathed, I felt a shiver run down my spine.

“Cold?” his breath ghosted over my chest.

“No. You?”

Ohno shook side to side. I moved my body so I could lift my arm up and place my right hand in his light brown hair. I let my fingers rest on the back where it was cut short. I’m not going to lie, when he showed me the cut, I kind of didn’t like it. But after a few hours I got used to it already.

He left out a small moan as my fingertips rubbed his scalp. “Sho…”

“Yeah?” I whispered down at him. He was getting closer to me until our lips touched. His lips were unbelievably soft, not that I had ever thought about what they felt like. His tongue soon made an appearance until we were slowly rocking against each other.

Ohno fisted the cushion under my head as he ground his hips harder into me. I sucked on his neck, but not hard enough to mark him.

Things got too heated all too fast, but neither of us cared--at least not at that moment. The same moment I regret right now.

We had somehow managed to make our way to his room to continue, but right at the wrong time he didn’t have any protection. I told him we could’ve just stuck to what we were doing earlier. But he insisted that the store’s just around the corner.

Just around the corner was all it took.

I don’t know why, but the minute he left, I wanted him to come back. You can say it was cause I wanted to fuck him every which way, but it was more along the lines that I had a bad feeling.

I wish my words of persuasion were stronger.

Quickly I put my pants back on and threw on his hoodie before running out the house. I didn’t make it no farther than to the end of the block where I saw him, or at least his legs. Slowly I approached him, in fear of what I’d see around the corner, before running closer.

“It doesn’t hurt as much as I thought it would,” he groaned. My tears were flooding my eyes, making it harder to see.

“I’ll call you an ambulance,” my voice quivered. As I got ready to get up, he quickly grabbed my leg.

“Don’t leave me…please,” he gasped. His lower lip trembled as if he was going to cry, but no tears were present.

“But you’ll die!” I yelled at him. I don’t know why he didn’t want me to get help. I don’t know why he was choosing to sit with me and bleed out rather than live.

“It’s okay,” he gasped, the fear present in his eyes. I searched his pockets in hopes he had a cellphone, but I found nothing. Not even change for me to use the payphone right across the street.

“Ohno, please. Let me just run to the house. Please.”

I wasn’t sure if he heard me, his eyes were rolled up looking at the sky while he tried to regulate his breathing. I told him I was going to be back before running faster than I ever had to his house and grabbed the nearest cellphone. My trembling hand dialed for help as I ran back to where Ohno was.

When I was filming for the movie, I always thought ‘Wow doctors are amazing, but surgeons are something else. They can handle having to deal with blood and many more unpleasantness.’ I never thought one day I was going to have to encounter it in my life.

It felt like years as we waited for the ambulance. His head was in my lap as he let out small agonizing cries. ‘I’m sorry’ was the only clear words he said. My chest felt tight whenever he said it. I wanted nothing more than to yell shut up, but I never did. I couldn’t even talk as the ball in my throat made it too hard.

Faint sirens were heard in the background. Ohno’s breathing seemed to be getting slower. If I thought his hyperventilating was scary, his tranquility was even scarier.

“Satoshi?” my broken voice whimpered. The hand that was gripping mine was loosening up. “Satoshi?” I repeated a bit louder. As the sirens neared us, his grip got lighter. What followed next didn’t exactly register, all I remember was that I was crying so hard my throat felt raw.


It wasn’t in the plan, we were only supposed to stay home after dinner, we shouldn’t be out. We were only supposed to stay home.

I had apologized to his family, on my knees begging for their forgiveness. Even though they didn’t blame me, I felt I deserved their anger.

The more I thought about my faults, the more my chest felt like it was closing up. The more I thought about losing him, no longer being there for him, no longer laughing with him...

My anxiety eventually reached a point where I had to get sedated. I didn’t get a chance to be there with him.


I woke up the next morning in a hospital bed with a bandaged Ohno looking down at me. Quickly I shot out of bed and stood in front of him. “You’re…you’re fine?”

“Mm,” his dry voice cracked. “I lost quite a lot of blood,” he tried to say. I poured his some water from the pitcher of melting ice that the nurses most likely left in my room. I tilted his head back and helped him drink.

“I was so scared I-we lost you.”

“Sorry.” Softly I hugged him, trying my best to not squeeze too tight. I felt his body tremble against mine, causing me to fear I was hurting him. “I’m so sorry,” he cried on my shoulder. “But I came back,” he choked. “I came back for you.”

I kissed his forehead, down to his tearstained cheeks, and finally his lips. Gently, I sat him down on my bed, holding him close to me until the nurses came in to check on us.

He suffered four deep incisions, wounds that shocked the doctors that he hadn’t died before making it to the hospital. When they told him that, Ohno simply looked over at me and gave me an innocent smile.

I was always there for him, but I guess this time he was there for me.

Kei: Yama <3keiblackcat_13 on April 20th, 2011 06:27 am (UTC)
Huah... TT____TT
It's good! and sweet! and also sad!
but I love it! TTwTT
I can't describe it with words, it's beautiful too~ T__T

thank you so much for sharing.. TTvTT
cry1babycry1baby on April 20th, 2011 04:05 pm (UTC)
Thank you
sorry for the sadness >.<
thanks for reading ^^
kk4food: fanart1kk4food on April 20th, 2011 06:34 am (UTC)
So sweet, it scared me as I read along, afraid that Ohno would really die T_T
Thank goodness he's ok.
Yama Love so touching and sweet ♥
Thanks for sharing XD
cry1babycry1baby on April 20th, 2011 04:07 pm (UTC)
Thanks for reading ^^
i actually did plan on making him die, but after i wrote a certain line, my idea changed haha
(no subject) - kk4food on April 20th, 2011 06:56 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - cry1baby on April 20th, 2011 06:59 pm (UTC) (Expand)
syayameasyayamea on April 20th, 2011 07:09 am (UTC)
i really scared that ohno will die...
thankfully...he safe~~~~

thanks for sharing^^
cry1babycry1baby on April 20th, 2011 04:07 pm (UTC)
Thanks for reading~
chibipinkpetalschibipinkpetals on April 20th, 2011 09:01 am (UTC)
poor ohno lately he's been suffering alot but it's ok bc there is sho for him and ohno for sho. thnx for this:D
cry1babycry1baby on April 20th, 2011 04:10 pm (UTC)
oh really? haha i havent been reading fics in like 2 months XD. thanks for reading~
nekochan_lianekochan_lia on April 20th, 2011 09:12 am (UTC)
this fic is very sweet. thank god it didn't turn out to be a death fic. love your yama fic
cry1babycry1baby on April 20th, 2011 04:12 pm (UTC)
thank you
that was my original plan, but after writing one certain line my idea changed haha.
thank you hun~
dekkawaidekkawai on April 20th, 2011 09:37 am (UTC)
I was fear at first that Ohno will die,, but then I'm glad you didn't kill him xD
thank you very muh for this ...
cry1babycry1baby on April 20th, 2011 04:14 pm (UTC)
That was my original plan, but after writing a line my idea changed haha
thanks for reading~
ginger001: arashi: ohno-jun-shoginger001 on April 20th, 2011 09:56 am (UTC)
I got a bit scared there for a sec... but it was good! I love Yama pair! It's my second fav pair. Thank you! ^^
cry1babycry1baby on April 20th, 2011 04:15 pm (UTC)
thank you~
mm, i love me some yama along with sakuraiba XD
bubbledropsbubbledrops on April 20th, 2011 10:23 am (UTC)
aaaaaaaaaaah ;o;

so so so sweet♥
thank you for sharing.
cry1babycry1baby on April 20th, 2011 04:18 pm (UTC)
thank you~
and thanks for reading^^
Momo: shomongo_o_o on April 20th, 2011 10:46 am (UTC)
oh my, i really wasn't expecting sth like this when i started reading T___T
cry1babycry1baby on April 20th, 2011 04:19 pm (UTC)
>.< sorry, but you still enjoyed it right?
(no subject) - mongo_o_o on April 20th, 2011 04:25 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - cry1baby on April 20th, 2011 04:28 pm (UTC) (Expand)
borylovearashiborylovearashi on April 20th, 2011 12:56 pm (UTC)
God your so good thank you so much for your the best
cry1babycry1baby on April 20th, 2011 04:20 pm (UTC)
aw hun *hugs*
thank you for the compliments [even though i could write better, i'm glad you feel that i'm actually good haha] and of course thanks for reading~
Himitsu 17himitsu_17 on April 20th, 2011 01:59 pm (UTC)
Ooooh T___T
I'm so happy with the end ♥

Thank you <3
cry1babycry1baby on April 20th, 2011 04:21 pm (UTC)
Thanks for reading~
satoshilovesatoshilove on April 20th, 2011 02:17 pm (UTC)
Huaaah,, this is really sweet ><..,,

But, Ohchan got the incident,, it's really Sad ;(
cry1babycry1baby on April 20th, 2011 04:23 pm (UTC)
somehow when i thought about Sho getting the incident, i felt it wouldnt have much of an impact...at least not with this pairing
jellybean6972: Yama Haatobiitojellybean6972 on April 20th, 2011 03:12 pm (UTC)
Aww~ so sad, but yet sweet and happy at the same time~ :D

Thanks for sharing :)
cry1babycry1baby on April 20th, 2011 04:25 pm (UTC)
thanks for reading~
Ramen Lover: ohnoooooramen_lover30 on April 20th, 2011 03:40 pm (UTC)
I swear I'll cry if you made Ohno die >_<
but it was happy ending in the end~~ wonderful Fic XD
cry1babycry1baby on April 20th, 2011 04:26 pm (UTC)
that was what i wanted to do, but a line changed my idea and he ended up living haha
but thanks for reading hun~
yuui1010yuui1010 on April 20th, 2011 04:10 pm (UTC)
You really make me scare. I hate dead fic, so I run and read the last part to be sure that Ohno is safe! then I read it again from the start XDD
It's sweet<333
cry1babycry1baby on April 20th, 2011 04:28 pm (UTC)
haha i would've put the warning of deathfic so you wouldn't have to accidentally stumble into it <----a nice/caring author
thanks for reading too