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24 August 2009 @ 02:57 pm
New World in My View Pt.1  
Title: New World in My View Pt.1
Pairing: Aiba/Sho
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Aiba falls in love with Sho, but does he love him back?
Disclaimer: I'm not any of the mentioned characters, don't know them either, or own them. This is a work of fiction.
Warning: Slight male one male action. Unbetaed

Aiba exhaled as he stared at his ceiling fan spin around. His eyes followed the circular motion until he was able to see a single propeller. Minutes later he was crying staring at that one propeller. What was once noticeable became one with the crowd as his vision blurred. Aiba rolled over to his side covering his face with trembling hands.
Earlier that day

Sho was taking photos for his play-date with Aiba for another magazine. Most people would find it strange that they did that with each other, but it never bothered him. He didn't mind shopping for the same clothes with Aiba to the point where they matched. They already had the same underwear. "Hey, what do you think of these glasses," he laughed turning around. The taller man laughed his typical breathy laugh and took a picture of it.

"It looks great," he laughed looking at the picture he just took in the digital camera. Sho smiled and removed the purple plastic flower glasses. They continued wearing weird clothes, hats, and glasses before actually looking for things they would wear. Aiba bit his lip as he watched Sho shifting through some jeans. The serious look on his face needed to be captured, but he didn't want to share it at all. He raised the camera and snapped the shot.

"Oi," Sho said softly still looking at the different jeans "Not yet". Aiba smiled and began looking for some shoes.

"I'll be over there okay," he said to Sho not waiting for an answer. Sho looked up to where Aiba disappeared off to and smiled softly. He knew the other was getting tired because once he started 'looking' for something far away from him he knew it meant he wanted to go. After pulling out two pairs of jeans he walked over to Aiba who was trying on a few shoes and sneakers.

"We can go now," Sho said startling Aiba. The man gave him a quick nod put his own shoes back on. They paid for their items and walked to Sho's car.

"Are you going home now?" Aiba asked looking through all the pictures they took which was well over 130.

"I still have a lot of time to kill. So we can do something else," Sho replied staring at the street ahead of him.

"Want to come over to mine? It's closer," Aiba smiled staring at Sho's profile. He knew when he fell in love with him, he just never said it out loud to anyone. He didn't care if others knew about it, but he couldn't read Sho's actions. They'd hug and sometimes cling onto each other, but there has never been a defining moment where he knew the other man liked him the same way. Aiba's question was never answered, but he knew Sho was driving them to his place.

Once at Aiba's they made some food, or more like Sho did the simple tasks and Aiba did the rest.

"Do have anything to drink?" Sho asked preparing the table.

"Check the fridge," Aiba mumbled making the fried rice. He knew tonight would be the best time to tell Sho his feelings, but didn't know how to go about it. When he was done they sat across from each other and ate.

"Oh, this is so good" the rapper moaned through a mouthful of food. Aiba smiled and nodded in agreement. He poured his beer in a cup and wondered if he should use the help of alcohol or if he should do it himself.



"Can we talk about something?"

Sho noticed the change in tone and new something was seriously up. He looked at Aiba and who had practically became a ball of nerves. "What's wrong?" he was worried it was going to be tragic news like when he had to get surgery for his lung.

"What would you say if I was to tell you that...I could be..." Aiba stopped and covered his face. Sho remained silent and didn't rush him, he knew whatever was bothering him was something that had to be said at his own pace. "I'm...I think I'm gay or bi or..." he looked up at Sho as his words faded away. He was staring at him wide-eyed.

"That's all?"

"Well kinda, but what would you say?"

"It's not a big deal, and that I would support you in whatever you do. I sound like a mom" Sho laughed taking hold of the man's hand. Aiba got up and sat next to Sho. He wanted to be closer for what he was going to say next.

"What would you say if I said I love you?"

"I love you too," Sho laughed not getting Aiba's meaning.

"No, Sho like..." he cut himself off and kissed Sho's full lips. The rapper's eyes widened and his brain blanked out before deciding to do something. Sho pulled away trying to come up with something to say next.

"Masaki, I don't see you that way," he said slowly. "Sorry," he whispered looking down at his hands. He couldn't look at Aiba who he was sure was crying.

"It's okay," Aiba's voice cracked a little. He took their plates and began washing them trying his best not to cry in front of Sho. When he was done he got ready to walk out the kitchen but a hand grabbed him. He soon found himself in Sho's arms.

"I'm sorry," Sho whispered again. Aiba wrapped his arms around him knowing this would be his only chance to hold him this way. Sho tried not to become uncomfortable, but he couldn't help it. This hug most likely meant a lot more to Aiba than it did to him. It was then did Sho feel Aiba's lips kiss his neck in small little pecks. Exhaling softly, he pushed his friend away from him. "Don't," he said in a soft voice.

"Just pity me," Aiba whimpered holding himself. "Just for a little bit." Sho swallowed and looked at his band mate who did look pitiful at the moment. "Please."

"I can't."

"Please," Aiba repeated moving closer. Sho froze up in his spot as he watched Aiba take his shirt off. "Just for tonight." Again Aiba's lips where on him. He closed his eyes trying to untangle his fingers from from the other man's.

He wasn't sure what bothered him more, the fact that Aiba was throwing himself at him like this or that he felt slightly turned on with the way those lips touched his neck. When his fingers where free he grabbed Aiba's face cradling both cheeks in either hand.

"I can't do this with you. Please stop," Sho said breathlessly. With a small peck to Aiba's forehead, he left. Aiba stared at the door before covering his face in regret. He may have done more damage than getting drunk and having sex with him would. Aiba went to put the clothes he bought away where he noticed a pair of jeans that he didn't buy. On the bag he noticed Sho's handwriting.

'Got these for you, hope you like them.' Aiba collapsed on his bed looking at the ceiling fan.
Back to present

It was strange how Sho's gentle actions towards him hurt more than the words of rejection. He closed his eyes and tried to remember the hug he gave him or even the time they shared earlier that day so that he'd fall asleep with good memories. With tightly closed eyes, he waited until sleep took over him.
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kajalmonstakajalmonsta on August 24th, 2009 09:44 pm (UTC)
that's soooo sweet and sad ;___;
is it a multichap? i hope you don't let it end that way ;__;
saku-chan: Masaki<3saku062 on August 24th, 2009 10:32 pm (UTC)
Yay a another Sakuraiba multi-chapter!!!
You know what? I already love it *___*
A bit angtsy, not too chessy, and a slight smut...JUST PERFECT! *_*

I'm waiting or the next part...there will be a next part, right? *points at the "Pt.1" in the title*
cry1babycry1baby on August 24th, 2009 10:42 pm (UTC)
Thanks, ch. 2 will be up soon.

thanks for reading

the random who is not random.: aiba smilesnakahara02 on August 25th, 2009 02:02 am (UTC)
this is interesting! I like how you show the present and then past and present again(:

hope to read more from you soon(((:
the_trishness: Sho-chan's million $ smilethe_trishness on August 25th, 2009 02:09 am (UTC)
Aweeeeeeee!! ;~;

I really hope to read more soon!
iMai<33aimai3 on August 25th, 2009 02:25 am (UTC)
seriously, i want to read moree...:( it sound sooo interesting and goodd!
MissMei34animemanga1994 on August 25th, 2009 06:12 am (UTC)
awwwwwwwww!!! why sho??? really sad how Sho didn't like Aiba!!!! can't wait for the next chapter!!!
Momomomof on August 25th, 2009 06:20 am (UTC)
I'll kill you you don't have the intention to finish this :bullseye: J/K lol But I'm a loyal Sakuraiba fangirl who's in love with your fiction so... just pity me lol

And it's usually Sho who has feeling for Aiba first so this is new, nice and... danger! The storyline itself is not that new tho (but all sorts of things can happen in the next chapter so judging is a bit early). Anyway, I like you way of writing it, you don't sound like you're trying to explain Aiba's situation and his feelings. You just describe them in a subtle way and it's better this way.

It's not perfect but I love it so yay, am looking forward to next release xD
kyokutankyokutan on August 25th, 2009 08:08 pm (UTC)
Aaaw, why Sho? Why don't you like Aiba?
Thank you for writing this, I really can't wait for part 2!! ^_^
Jolene: AIBA- Summer timeamaskuponthesky on August 28th, 2009 09:20 am (UTC)
Julia the Petrified Avian: Arashi Lovepebblegosling on October 31st, 2009 04:38 am (UTC)
Oh..this was so so sad..
Multichap? YES? PLEASE?!
cry1babycry1baby on October 31st, 2009 07:12 am (UTC)
it sure is a multichap, thanks for reading

sushi4eversushi4ever on October 31st, 2009 05:48 am (UTC)
Aiba~~ *hug him*

Sooo sweet and yay for another sakuraiba fic
Thanx a lot can't wait to know what will happen next
cry1babycry1baby on October 31st, 2009 07:13 am (UTC)
you are welcomed
and thank YOU for reading

l0v3-me-n0wl0v3_me_n0w on October 31st, 2009 07:20 am (UTC)
i hope sho will like aiba soon!
hope to see ur update! (:
cry1babycry1baby on October 31st, 2009 04:30 pm (UTC)
you will, thanks for reading

Karasu Fictiontetenanii on November 11th, 2010 12:36 am (UTC)
I'm back for more :D this one is really great! *on to next chapter*
cry1babycry1baby on November 11th, 2010 01:59 am (UTC)
haha XD hi~

this was my 1st multichap, hope you like it