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26 August 2009 @ 10:15 pm
Part 2  
Title: New World in My View Pt.2
Pairing: Sakuraiba
Rating: R
Summary: There's a change in Aiba and Sho.
Disclaimer: All fiction, JE owns Arashi.
Warning: Unbetaed. A bit OOC Aiba and more of that male on male action.
A/N: The setting is a week after ch.1

A week later

Aiba opened his eyes, rubbing the sleep from them. Things between Arashi and him had been weird ever since his play-date with Sho. He seemed more moody and not the bright, bouncy, moderately annoying Aiba. At times he was so quiet that it nearly made Ohno seem energized. Of course everyone tried to find out what was wrong but he'd only run off. However, like the idol he was he knew how to hide it from the media. On TV and in interviews he turned on his idiot mode and shut off the minute everything's over. He dragged himself to his bathroom and sat in the tub staring blankly at his toes peeking out. Maybe he should snap out of it, stop being so angsty like a teenager. It was only a rejection, a rejection from someone who he's been in love with since their debut. He sighed and dipped himself in so he was completely under the water.

5 minutes later he was in his room changing into the shirt he bought with Sho along with the jeans he got for him. He got ready to leave when he noticed an envelope that was slid under his door. There was no address or anything, just a letter in it. From the handwriting he knew it was from Sho. Aiba contemplated on reading it or just throwing it away. He knew it would be filled with I love you as a friend and nothing more type words, but was still curious as to what Sho really thought. Writing did help others speak more freely than out loud. Aiba sat on the couch and opened the letter.


I'm sorry for leading you on that night and that hug probably didn't help you either except make you throw yourself at me. I really wanted to yell at you for what you were doing to me, but I couldn't. I know what it feels like to love someone the way you do and I know how much my words probably hurt you so much more than me getting mad at you and calling you names. I'm sorry. When I got home, I thought back and felt frustrated that I didn't see these signs earlier. But I couldn't could I, you disguised it so well. Just like when we are on TV, you play the role of Aibaka. I also thought about my own feelings that night. How it felt when I hugged you, the reason why I hugged you, the feeling of you kissing my neck

Aiba I want to speak to you in person now. Please talk to me.


Aiba stared at the letter and wondered what more can Sho say. He dropped the letter and walked out, but he was still unsure as to whether or not he wanted to talk to him yet. He arrived a little bit late which caused him to get scolded by Matsujun. Usually he would say sorry which has happened before, but something in him snapped. He looked sharply at Matsumoto and yelled at him. He walked off soon after, not even turning around when he heard Ohno call out his name. He went into the dressing room and changed into the clothes the staff prepared for him.

"Aiba open up it's me," he heard Nino say. Aiba slapped the table in anger and opened the door.

"What?" he spat noticing Nino flinch. He's never been angry before or if he was he would smile and everything would be back to normal, but he couldn't smile. He was too angry at himself for what he did, as well as the fact that he got a rejection letter from Sho. To top it off he gets scolded by Jun, someone younger than him, for being five minutes late. Nino walked in and sat on the couch looking at Aiba who was still standing by the door. "What is it Nino? I'm really not in the mood," he sighed.

"That's the thing, you're never in the mood. When have you become scarier than Matsujun? I'll apologize on his behalf, but seriously what happened to you? The Aiba we know-"

"Fuck this. I have to go. I already made filming start later than it should," Aiba said walking out the room. Nino sighed and walked over to where everyone was watching the angry man march to standby.

They had finished their filming of Arashi no Shukudai-kun, which as always had the fun atmosphere. Ailand had gone by without a hitch as well. Aiba laughed, giggled, stumbled on his words, said the wrong word, etc. He played his part, until he went back to the dressing room. He waited until everyone was done changing before he changed. He told the staff he would take a taxi home instead, which Sho took this opportunity to talk to him.

"Aiba-kun," Sho said closing the door behind him. Aiba turned around and all his held back feelings came rushing in. Sho could see the man shrink the minute they were alone. "Did you get my letter?"

"Yes, thanks for rejecting me again," Aiba's voice trembled.

"No, no I wasn't rejecting you. I was telling you how I felt."

"I still don't get it. I can't read you Sho-chan. Not even through a letter."

Sho grabbed Aiba's face and kissed him. Aiba whimpered before pushing him away. Tears where running down his cheeks in frustration. "Don't fuck with me! You said you didn't see me that way!" Aiba yelled.

"I didn't, but..that night I-"

"It's too late to pity me. I don't want it anymore."

"Listen to me. That night, after I got home, I realized I liked how it felt to have you kiss me. And when I thought about the way you moved against me while you kissed me, Aiba I liked it."

"I can't accept this," Aiba said wiping his eyes. Sho kissed him again to which Aiba kissed back softly. "Are you telling me the truth or are you bullshitting me?"

"It's the truth, but I don't know how far I can go with you," Sho said still holding onto Aiba's face.

"Just stop when it's too much," Aiba whispered before kissing the rapper again. Sho kissed back trying too keep up with him, who was either eager or a really good kisser. They broke apart and stared at each other.

"Can we just stick to this?" Sho asked. He realized he couldn't go any further than kissing him. Aiba nodded changing back into his clothes making Sho smile when he saw the jeans. They fit him unbelievably well. Sho caught himself looking at Aiba's ass whenever he bent over to pick something up which startled him a bit. He knew he still liked women, and that men didn't attract him, but Aiba does and he doesn't know why.

Since that day Sho found himself daydreaming about Aiba or thinking about the first kiss he gave him. It may have been a small one, but it still left a huge impression on him. Another thing that he's been dealing with since that day would be the random dreams he'd have about Aiba. He's used to dreaming about Aiba, but not having sexual dreams about him.

"So what do we do now?" Aiba asked looking at Sho. He didn't want to rush him and was afraid to do anything that would cause him to run away.

"See where this goes," Sho smiled and kissed Aiba again. The taller man smiled and took Sho's hand into his.

"Back to mine?"

"I can't, News Zero," was all he said.

"Maybe next time then," Aiba said walking out the room. Sho wondered whether or not he upset him, but was answered when he stepped out the room and realized Aiba standing by the door. Sho waited for a taxi with Aiba, neither really saying just thinking about the other. Aiba still doubted the man's feelings a little bit while Sho worried about his own feelings. "See you tomorrow right? It's your day off," Aiba asked opening the taxi door.

"You got work don't you?"

"It's just an interview and some other minor stuff. So tomorrow, my place around 5 PM?"

"Okay. Bye."

Aiba waved and got in the taxi. Sho watched it leave as he scratched his head wondering what exactly was happening to him.
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Lilly: Sakuraiba x5magicalsong on August 28th, 2009 05:58 am (UTC)
Omg, beautiful! <3

I loved this so much :3

It had that element of angst that made my heart kind of.. hurt? But I guess the idea of Aiba-chan being so ... not happy(?) was .. hot? xP Not that I don't like him happy. o__o

Well, I obviously can't seem to leave a coherent comment. xD

But, I really loved this! :D Thanks so much for writing ^-^
cry1babycry1baby on August 28th, 2009 05:44 pm (UTC)
thank you, glad you really liked it

saku-chan: Masaki<3saku062 on August 28th, 2009 06:01 am (UTC)
Aiba scaring the others like MastuJun would do is an interesting concept...I like it! XD

Aaaah finally, Sho discovered that there's something irresistible in Aiba n_n

I'm looking forward the next chapter!!♥
the random who is not random.nakahara02 on August 28th, 2009 06:42 am (UTC)
you updated! (:

The way you wrote abt aiba being moody and so is really nice and somehow i can picture it(:

the flow was unexpected, well i wasn't expecting them to be tght so sudden but it's great how you portrayed sho's uncertainty at the same time with aiba doubting to.

update soon&hears;
the random who is not random.nakahara02 on August 28th, 2009 06:43 am (UTC)
♥ i mean(:
iMai<33aimai3 on August 28th, 2009 11:24 am (UTC)
I can really piture thiss, so well written.
I will be waiting for the next chapte
MissMei34animemanga1994 on August 28th, 2009 12:49 pm (UTC)
wow!!! Aiba got really mad in here!! sooo glad that Sho confessed to Aiba in the end!! can't wait for the next chapter!!!!
Momomomof on August 28th, 2009 03:11 pm (UTC)
It's all written nice & neat. There's this feeling that you're really careful with your words. They're all simple words but they give out the better&clearer view of your fics which I do like xD

I like how the story goes. I truly like it! Cause I've read fics with the same situation where the rejecter would feel confused over a kiss or some particular sexual tension of the one who confessed to him. But most of the time, the authors would make the character like Sho here immediately assume that it's love and things would go on well from then on. But here, I can still sense confusion in Sho's thoughts and hope in a not-so-daring Aiba. And it's good and real like that.

I like your Sakuraiba fics tho you havent posted that much but I'm looking forward to your updated works xD
cry1babycry1baby on August 28th, 2009 07:35 pm (UTC)
thanks for enjoying my work *blush*

the next chapter will be up soon (giving that school starts monday it may take a while)

Momomomof on August 29th, 2009 10:18 am (UTC)
Ah, Im really happy to hear that you'll update soon. But if you're busy and pushing yourself for us then...it's okay to take it slow. We all can wait,ne? ^_^
Momomomof on August 29th, 2009 12:54 pm (UTC)
P/S: Ah, this is sefish of me but ne, I'm begging you not to make Aiba the seme :puppyseyes: If you already intend to do so from the beginning then I guess it's something I have to accept, ne :"D But if you havent decided yet then pls :sob: Aiba seme is something too much to take for me :((

Maybe I'm too selfish here :shot myself:
cry1babycry1baby on August 29th, 2009 09:46 pm (UTC)
lol its not selfish at all, i kind of have an ending to this so its not 100% set in stone. But to reassure you, we are on the same wavelengths.


p.s. my major allows me to still be able to throw some stories at you guys, so i won't be over working (hopefully lol)

sushi4eversushi4ever on October 31st, 2009 09:05 pm (UTC)
you update yay yay

I like how it developed~~~~~

can't wait to read the next chapter ♥
cry1babycry1baby on November 1st, 2009 06:48 am (UTC)
thanks hon

l0v3-me-n0wl0v3_me_n0w on November 1st, 2009 09:16 am (UTC)
wow, it is quite rare to see aiba become so angry.
angry aiba is a little scary. hahas.
but i am glad that sho is slowing falling for aiba? haha.
(Anonymous) on January 3rd, 2010 01:31 am (UTC)
Your fanfics are great, they're believable and not just the usual cliched arashi stereotypes. Keep writing!
cry1babycry1baby on January 3rd, 2010 04:32 am (UTC)
aw thank you

Karasu Fictiontetenanii on November 11th, 2010 12:41 am (UTC)
aibaaaaa is magical :)